Dear 23 Millineal self
That said, I have some advice to send back to my younger self maybe some of you can relate. a walk to my 23 year old self.
Dear 24,
23 was loaded; emotionally and mentally
there were times when you let yourself down, and there were times when you exceeded your own expectations. you experimented with loss, work, love,friendship and life itself. you discovered new things and you revisited ways of thinking about old things.
23 showed you that its not easy coping with Grief and loss : I lost a purest form of love, strength wisdom all wrapped in one my Grandfather 💔. this was my first experience losing someone close to me and i'm really fortunate to be 23 and not have lost anyone till then, but that doesn't make the situation any easier. I am going to miss my grandpa more than I can possibly express. if anything i've learned to cherish the moments I have with the people I love and care about. if you take anything from this let it be the advice my grandpa gave me: '' Be good to people, be kind and work hard.'' death is a double-end sword. on one end you're grateful that the person is no longer in pain, and on the other you want to be selfish and wish they were still here even just to look at. Grief is a process- and a long one at that. To anyone who has lost a loved one and is starting to feel a little crazy with all this emotions arising just know it's normal and you're not alone.
23 showed you that love isn't easy: someone once told me ''you cannot express a love you've never experienced. well for me I couldn't relate. if you know me i'm a hopeless romantic. and for people like me being emotionally numb is nothing like it. well my zodiac (leo) is a bit entranced with love. we are the royalty of romance 😄. but it has its drawbacks we don't get enough in returns. perhaps believing in magic and fairytales are some of the things that prevents us from the realities of relationships. well check on my blog dear millenial baddie https://mitchellelawrence50.blogspot.com/2019/04/dear-millineal.html and i'll take you on a full length of the pros and cons.
23 led you to your first job experience: everybody remembers their first job.it's a definitive time in your life. it's a step up from childhood and a preview from adulthood. it's a proud moment, when you're old enough to earn your own money. first job experiences are also formative. not only do they teach you the value of hardwork and money - they also shape your understanding of the world. They increase your self-confidence and self sufficiency. and a good first job will get you started on the path to future success. well with my first current job it has been a series of experiences, learning and amazing encounters. from purely a yield standpoints own a saving accounts. savings provide a financial backstop for luncertaintiesties, financial security, future investments and also peace of mind. well, if I shoot from the hip i'm not into the corporate world. I believe i wasn't made for this. I dream of leaving behind the corporate life. reporting to one but yourself. well no planned exit yet but I hope someday to go all in on my side hustle of writing, blogging, counseling and entrepreneurship and have it as a full hustle. in the meantime i'm in an entanglement of my job and my side hustles and I hope the Jada in me will walk away from one and embrace the next. we all know who's the smith in this case😂😉.
23 showed you that some friendship were only circumstance-based connections: and they're not deeper than you want them to be, so just accept them for what they are. though they may linger in active memory for a while after partying ways, all too quickly they are relegated to an inactive part of your distant memory. though I have had many friends of circumstance, I never know when one might become something more. I personally, have few friends of intention and most, if not all, of these friends of intentions started off as friends of circumstance.whether by intentions all circumstances alone they all play an invaluable, though distinct, role in my life. above all be your own best friend. and enjoy every ounce of your company.
Relationships: Can we not discuss this in public? sure, while this area remains parked for a while, you have come to realize that the best relationship you will ever have is with yourself. since turning 23 you let go of having to put so much effort in trying to fit in, be liked,be cool,being loved and focused more on giving this qualities to yourself instead. now being alone in your own company, is one of the cheapest luxuries you've honed and are not prepared to let go any time soon! claim thyself back.
23 showed you that you can easily fall victim to situations you've previously been so quick to judge other people on.
23 defied logic,time, space and emotions
23 was about everything around you so please promise me to make 24 simply about you.
so, here is an open letter to ME
Dear soon to be 24 year old Michelle
The other day someone asked me if I had new year resolutions. i'm the type to have a bucket list and all but this year I chose to layback and let things to unfold on their own. well In all fairness I just want everything to be much better than the last year. If anything 2020 has been my teaching ground. You may think you have it all figured out but what the road holds for you is far different than what you're imagining. expect surprises, explore the unknown and take any opportunity you can now to expand your knowledge in every area that interests you. Your career calling is going to pull at your heart-springs, so be sure to listen. I repeat, listen to your guts.
Stay grounded : if ever there was a time to know how to stay grounded, its now. in the midst of pandemic and the economical upheaval brought on by extreme social distancing, the world seems to have turned upside down. Around the globe, peoples minds are buzzing with uncertainty. How many will be lost to this virus?will we, or someone we love be infected? how long will it last? we have no way of knowing what the future holds. but in the midst of all this learn to stay on your lane try not to worry about others too much, they will take care of themselves and you should remain focused on you or else no one will.
24 is about keeping love alive, to keep watering the friendships, and reap new ones, to keep being a safe place where everyone turns for support and not gossip.
24 is having the strength to let things go and welcome new things in. its about realizing when certain chapters should end and new ones should begin. my favorite quote ''I trust the next chapter because I know the author''.
you lived your 23 in a messy book with random chapters and inconsistent pages. so your 24 should be the book you've always wanted to read.
write that book, do that counselling degree, optimize opportunities. it all boils down to taking the decision and nothing ever grew by stalling.
Work hard: Yes you must work to maintain your life but never be a slave. work when you have to and play when you have the time to. find a balance and most importantly, find something that makes you feel like you're having fun everyday, so it doesn't feel alot like work.
TRUST: trust yourself because no-one else really does, until you prove them wrong. how tiring? Things are unfolding as they should and you should learn to trust the process. also be confident you got this.
Shake the negativity: Develop a thick skin and use adversities to learn valuable life skills. you will learn to pick yourself up quicker when you fall because depression is real and you don't need that baggage now and ever. you still have so many years ahead and so much life in you to spend it doing things you don't like, people you don't even like or even worrying.
Never forget God and where you come from: This will always be a compass leading you to your destined life.
I know a fact you'll mess up in your 24 or else things won't be normal. but see at least now you're more aware of how to deal with the things you faced in your twenty-three
Happy Birthday🎂😘
sincerely yours,
from your loving selfie
Michelle Kariuki
Michelle's Diary
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A good one...Easy to read.